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Guilt
04:05
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I’ve been keeping all these secrets
Each one with its own grip on me
Guess I’m scared of broken pieces
Scared of all the mess you’ll see
Secretly I’ve not been breathing
Surprised you’ve not mentioned how I’ve been
My eyes grey, they are unseeing
My hands cold and out of reach
I am not some kind of demon
But It’s what I see when I look in
‘cos I told lies and then believed them
And I broke promises like skin
Wasted time but now I need it
I’m not the answer that you need
I carry guilt from other seasons
So I don’t expect you not to leave
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2. |
oMo (Man)
03:08
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Don’t feel as good as you used to
Good two shoes they untied you
As the rift grew wide inside you
They’ll say you did what you had to
You have not stopped laughing
Loosing faith has got it’s perks
Now death has chose his victim
Well, you slept on all those corpses
And you had to have the last word
But it came out so much worse
And you have not stopped laughing
Loosing faith has got its perks
Everything seems to hurt worse
Dig down deeper, still find dirt
You didn’t know it’s value
And your gut it didn’t trust you
Half with and half without you
And your world split right in two
Now they have not stopped laughing
Loosing faith has got its perks
Everything just hurts worse
Dig down deeper, still find dirt
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3. |
Falling
05:27
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Somehow I fell
(now) each memory passing slowly more out of reach
A place, a smell
Anvil-chested waking up from a falling dream
I knew relief
But It’s been years since I’ve said words I’m scared to speak
I don’t want to be alone
A quiet hell
My body tense each breath afraid to be released
Time didn’t tell
Or so it seems things are where they will be
And I have always been falling
I don’t want to be alone
(And) I have always been falling
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Hold my breath ’til, I forget time
Stop using sight, Give up on trying
‘cos my chest’s been tight, for the longest time
Fool me as many times as you like
Hide behind doors, in extinguished light
Pick the right time, to give me a fright
‘cos I’ve said I want, too many times
Fool me as many times as you like
I have always hidden parts of myself out of view, I chose not to see it
In the pit of my stomach I think I always knew, the dark was always waiting
My feet want to move forwards but my eyes don’t tell the truth, And I’m too scared to move on
So, just break me apart and rebuild me as something new
I don’t do much changing
I never did much changing
I’ll keep falling into fire
Call me a fool, if I am a fool
I just want to feel less tired
I don’t want to keep breaking in two
Inside I can see a liar
Every mirror I choose whispers shame upon you
Scared to admit my hearts expired
If I say that I do, will it mean that I lose?
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5. |
Derby's Dose
03:06
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What am I inside?
I feel stupid for asking
It’s still in my eye
that shadow dancing
Trouble comes, the end of the line
What God described our image like
I’ve learned isn’t mine
A past desperate to align
I’m bound by
fear made worse by time
I’m gagging like
derby’s dose is mine
live not quite alive
with ground collapsing
learning to despise
stinging on all sides
I’m bound by
fear made worse by time
I’m gagging like
derby’s dose is mine
(What am I inside?)
Feel stupid for asking
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Filth runs through my mind
Every second, Every second
And I want it
You’re here every time
As if heaven, as if heaven
Doesn’t own it
I need you to stop calling my phone
Finger down my spine
As if nothing
You cause chaos
Feels like I am blind
Never ending
I just don’t see it
I need you to stop calling my phone
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7. |
Annihilation
05:00
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Always didn’t mean always, when I said always
And I’ve made too many mistakes, not to end up in decay
Cut me down to size, ’til not one part remains
Pull me out of time, just let me fade away
I’ve been angry for ages still don’t want to face it
Always, always been afraid, you exist where I cant stay
Cut me down to size, ’til not one part remains
Pull me out of time, so I’ll exist again
I know it’s fine that it wont be ok, I just don’t feel ready to leave
I know it’s fine that it wont be ok, I just don’t feel ready to leave
I know it’s fine that it wont be ok, I just don’t feel ready to leave
I know it’s fine, but I wont be ok, I just don’t feel ready to leave
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8. |
King Of Misery
04:12
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Divided against myself
It all ends in embarrassment
I haven’t got the strength to end
The conversations ill intent
Ive come to watch the house burn down
Home again
You called me the king of misery
But I don’t think that’s who I am
With a chest made of sinking sand
I’m doing the best I can
If i could describe you in a sentence
I’d say you oppressed
If I have to wear you on my sleeve again
I will get undressed
If I have to drag you through another day
I’ll have no strength left
Dear voice inside
Telling me lies
The guilt that eats me
That leaves me tired
The words that beat me
Dear voice unkind
Dear me sometimes
Fuck off
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9. |
Hymn
05:50
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There’s a hope inside of me
There’s a hope inside of me
It’s somewhere that I can’t see
There’s a hope inside of me
Lay your weary head on me
Lay your weary head on me
‘Cos there’s something I can see
Lay your weary head on me
There’s no hope inside of me
There’s no hope inside of me
Am I too broken to believe
There’s any hope inside of me
Lay your weary head on me
LAY YOUR WEARY HEAD ON ME
I’ll break you off a bit of Peace
I’ll be air that you can breath
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Not much fun these days I guess
Humour, well I used to have it
I don’t laugh so easily
I wish that I was less depressing
Terror lives inside my chest (and)
Yes, I find it overwhelming
Disappear into thin air
“All my hope” There’s not much left
Underwater taking breaths
My lungs they have much to desire
I had swimming lessons as a child
I hope I still remember
Was feeling dark but now its death
Shadows they whisper surrender
Embarrassment up ahead
I am grateful for my friends
I am grateful for my friends
I am grateful for my friends
I am grateful for my friends
I am grateful for my friends
Write an email don’t hit send
I lied I didn’t even write it
I just said it in my head and
Let the words delete themselves
When I speak I second guess
As they leave my mouth my words
they tumble and undo themselves
while I’ll just keep on rambling at you
Was feeling dark but now its death
Shadows they whisper pretender
My bones they are filled with dread
But I am grateful for my friends
I am grateful for my friends
I am grateful for my friends
I am grateful for my friends
I am grateful for my friends
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